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03:50 pm: i seriously dont know what im gonna do on halloween. i think i might go with becca to san marcos sunday and then i would be back around like 6 on monday but im not sure what to do... well i have to go to work now see ya guys later. peace!

elyse

02:28 pm: CIRCA SURVIVE!!
ok so im gonna go to the circa survive show in LA on august 5th! is ne one else going?

01:33 pm: life continues to amaze me!
i never thought that bad things would happen to me... i always thought it would be someone else! im really worried right now... i just dont know how these sort of things could happen... and it scares me to know that there is nothing that i can do to help!

07:54 pm: im feelin' good!

for some reason i feel really good right now.. i got rid of all the people who made my life hell and im feelin' good! right now there is one quote that can explain how i feel.....

"Id like a beer, and id like to see somthin' nakid!" -jeff foxworthy

i am gonna party my ass off this weekend! whos with me!!!! lol.

09:13 pm:

Ok on the june 25th. so not this satruday but the next.. me and a whole bunch of people are gonna go to disney land.. so everybody has to go!!! i think that it is supposed to be a couples thing. but if i dont have a date by then... fuck it!! all go alone.. or hey becca do you want to be my date... lol.. jk. well seriously you guys have to go.. and if you need a ride call me!!!

11:32 am: life is good!
BECCA!!! guess what! i just told mike that im dont with him and i dont need his shit! i feel so much better now that he is out of my life! he kept saying that i was talking shit and i wasnt. oh and im sick of him hurting me.. i still have that bruse from him hitting me on the arm too.. it hurts. :'( . but i feel so good now that im done with him. lets go get chineese food!!!!

11:42 am: ill never know

summer is here!!!! im so glad this school year is over. what a relief!! well hey let me know if ne of you want to hang out tonight!! oh and my friend anbir wanted me to put this up here so she could read it so here you go....

 

"Ill Never Know!"

ill never know what its like to be you

but i know what is it like to want to die

how it hurts to smile

how you try to fit in but you cant

you try to hurt yourself on the outside

to kill the thing on the inside

how each moment you live you wish you were dead

and you die each moment that you live

and you cant recover

because you dont even understand your disease

you dont know if your crazy

because you dont even know what normal is

you dont know how to fix other people's problems

because you dont even know how to fix your own

you give out all your love

but dont recieve any in return

ill never know what it is like to be you

but you are not alone

and you are not different

we are all very much the sam

different lives and different experiences

but same feelings

ill never know what it is like to be you

but i know what it is like to want to die

 

so there you go... anbir you might know what i mean now... its crazy

06:22 pm: things suck!

yeah so basically thing suck right now.. its funny how things can be so good one minute and then all go to shit the next :( . and its really pathetic that im getting torn up over a stupid boy. honestly i think i really need to find somone who will care about me just as much as i care about them... but i can only hope. but things are prety shity! becca we need to go to arizona ASAP and get away from all of this shit! err! i need somone to hang out with to make me feel better! somone call me! (951)970-8681 well peace out!! oh and by the way im gonna go see lords of dog town friday so if you want to come with me just let me know.. bye guys.

elyse

03:18 pm: blah
well i havnt updated my journal in like 3 months so i decided to write a new one.. well lets see life is prety good right now.. i just quit my job and im gonna take the summer off so i can just relax and be with my friends. im also trying to start a new band so if ne of you guys are interested let me know. ok what else is new... hmmm... oh well i was seeing this guy a while ago who turned into an ass so that didnt work out and right now im just really cofused so not much is new there.. lol. i wish that guys would just tell you streight up how they felt. err.. oh and my friends beth and anbir prety much hate eachother and beth slapped anbir the other day so obviously they have a lot of anger towards eachother so im not gonna get involved.lol..i know... my life is lame. lol. well peace out. xoxo love you guys

elyse